LOUD NOISES (in my head)

Ever feel like this?

I have. A lot recently. Thoughts on topics that I never thought possible have seemed to torment me in the past few weeks. Thoughts about the vast un-answered questions that we have in life. God, heaven, hell, life, you name it, I've thought it. It's like a really bad second-hand thrift store; the most common and used topics and theories, I just feel so special like I was the first to think them.

Please. If the answers were easy, there would be no debate over who's God is right; if their was literal 100% physical proof that Jesus Christ is the Lord and Savior of the world, the harvest Jesus talked about in Luke 10:2 would be a lot easier to accrue.

But no, unfortunately we are still left in this reality of hard questions, difficult answers, and seemingly hopelessness. (At least that's how I feel sometimes.) In the end, I know God put me through these trials, however petty they may seem, to strengthen me. Not physically (though I wouldn't mind that, here God. Insta-workout would be a great miracle), but spiritually. Continuing with my Bible study in a year, I'm almost to the New Testament. I thank God for making me start this program, because there is truly so much untapped potential in the Bible. If you ever get the chance when you get the chance to read the Bible more in depth, start at some of the lesser known books, like Joshua and Judges. They're some great adventures, and great examples of how God comes through in the end.

IN OTHER NEWS. MARRIAGE. WHY IS EVERYONE GETTING MARRIED? 

It's climbin' in yo windows, snatchin' all yo friends up!

For real-zies, like, it seems everyone is. [I use everyone very liberally. I apologize.] But it is definitely to the point that I notice it more. As for me, pretty much the same as usual; hiding in my corner of singleness, content and curious as to how it all works. I've come to this realization;

Look, God has plans for all of us. We all also have plans for ourselves. Very rarely do those plans coincide and agree. When push comes to shove, God's plan will win, 10 times out of 10. Why do we fight? Why do we run? He'll get us sooner or later, and the later it is, the more painful it initially will be. The same applies to dating. We have our plans of who we want to marry and spend (what we think) the rest of our lives with. Sometimes, he gives our relationship of choice his stamp of approval; sometimes he discards it and says try again. And yet very rarely, he'll pull the not for you card. 

Stay with me. I'm not saying I believe I'm destined to be alone forever. Hey, the thoughts crossed my mind, but I don't think I really believe that (yet). What I have realized is that casual dating is pretty much behind me; the next one might be it, so no more dinkin' around. Obviously, that means I sit here in college-land USA watching my friends 140 character relationships come and go, along with all the problems that accompany them. It's hard, I'll admit, sometimes I just want that temporary pleasure. It ain't worth it, I know that much. And yet there is a strange peace with being at ease with ones singleness; a peace that I've only recently felt as I've thought and prayed more on the case. Again, it's not for everyone and results will vary, but still....it's always a mystery!

Future wife, if you're out there, this will be a pretty sick marriage. 

But more on that in the future....

Jacob